Well, not literally. I suppose it’s just as well we have no cliffs in London because the last few weeks at work would have certainly made the thought of it very appealing. The trouble with having a difficult time at work is that it inevitably creeps into your home life too. Hubby and I were arguing more and I was losing my patience with my children. Nobody likes to be “that” mum. The whole thing ends up spiralling up until you really don’t think you can take it anymore.
You may have remembered that I had a bit of a “losing it” moment with a senior executive a couple of weeks ago. Well, not content with having one emotional angry moment I decided to book end it with another. This time with my bosses boss. This isn’t generally seen as a good career move, but I think it really summed up my general mood at the time. Thankfully this man has a bit more emotional intelligence than the other guy and pressed me to the point where I was in fight or flight mode. I was either going to shout “Fuck off” to him or walk out and even I was a bit apprehensive at which way I was going to go. He saw the whites of my eyes, backed down and wandered off. I knew I hadn’t won. I had been lucky though. I could have really made a mess of that. We met the following Monday, much calmly and sorted out the disagreement in the right way. Thank goodness.
So I’m at a cross roads. I’ve been here 10 years in March and I recently decided I was going to find another job. I’ve got lots of obstacles to getting there, but none that can’t be overcome. I just need to break this all done in nice manageable chunks. I’m concerned I’m going to miss out on my long service leave in March. An extra 2 weeks holiday on top of the 4 weeks (Pro-rata for me, but works out the same). It may take me that long to find the job I want, I can’t let that be a reason to hang on. “I won’t earn as much” – Well, you never know. “I won’t get the same benefits” – you never know, and at any rate, being happier is much more important. “I haven’t got a CV” – schedule the time to work on it.
The plan was that I start to look for a new job and then that would dictate where we might move out to. We really want to move. I feel stifled where I am. The trouble is I don’t want to get a job somewhere only to discover all the areas around it I don’t want to live in. We are, therefore, planning to go and do a bit of snoop around in areas we might like. Hubby knows these places quite well, but I’m been a Londoner for 17 years and have never been to most. First stop is this weekend. Off to Hampshire to sample the delights that this county has to offer. I’ve got a couple of villages recommended to me by people on Twitter (we nearly went on Sunday with hangovers, but some friends cancelled a weekend with us this week, so we thought we would use that), so we are going to check them all out.
We are making a whole weekend of it and will be staying overnight at relatives in Newbury which also gives us the opportunity to have a look West of Newbury too. I’m really excited about it. If we find an area we like I can find out about school and other amenities and then look for jobs that sit somewhere between there and where I am now. Then I can commute for a while from here, hopefully with some flexibility and Pickle can complete Year 1 at her current school without me feeling guilty for pulling her out early.
All sounds so simple on paper though doesn’t it. I’m hoping it pans out that well.
Any advice on what to look for in a new area, other than good schools? What do you think makes a good place to live?